Wednesday, February 28, 2007
I FEEL THE PRESSURE.... of keeping so many secrets. Wah in one day alone, two friends have entrusted me to shutup and keep their secrets. I feel honoured but stressed. Better shut my big mouth up.
My throat has gone all wonky on me. It gives me such searing pain in one moment, and pretends to be normal in the next. Well, Life is Life. At least I got to talk to someone today and made me realise that I was not the only one feeling that way. It was actually amusing to see how someone else has such similar views towards her. And that that someone felt that way all along, when I just began to realise it. Finally, someone to identify with :) To hell with pretensive people ; I still marvel at the group of friends that bear with her daily tormenting.
We're all growing up much too fast, why doesn't anyone seem to notice?
Youknowwhat I'm not going to bring down my roommates with my moaning and groaning. If not they will be living in agony for 3 whole days. I'll just take Lifeskills with a pinch of salt. I'm looking forward to it now, just not formal night. I bet the rest will be really really fun =] Especially with my roomies- Kewei, Jolynn and LauLau. We shall join our beds and have pillow fights and midnight feasts and hopefully I can get a pic of them sucking their thumbs or something as blackmail.
It's official, im not going to Uk anymore. Oh well, still have the Hokkaido Trip to look forward to =] Jpop cds galore!
3:25 AM
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Warning: Teen angsting ahead. Don't read if you dislike displays of immature behaviour.
ROAR.Really vexed right now. I really really really want to go for the UK Trip. I know it's certainly costly, but it's the same as if I were going on a family vacation. Plus it's educational and will help greatly in literature, maybe even give me the inspiration that has abandoned me to write more stuff! What more could parents want on a trip?! I even offered to subsidise 1000 and NOT go on the Hokkaido Trip (though we will be transitting In Tokyo!) I didn't get the chance to go overseas last year. I stayed here! And this UK trip costs slightly less than some of those trips. I was actually considering the US Silicon Valley Trip, but my parents would have epilepsies at the price. Anyway, I shall be an evil little spoilt brat, because I really do not think it unreasonable, seeing as I am funding and all and did not get the chance to go on overseas trips before.
School really really sucks. There are many things due/events- Chi SIA Report, Bio SIA, Bio Talk tomorrow. I hate the way they crash our minds in this week and let us "enjoy" ourselves by forcing us to make up and fit THEIR expectations of perfect little girls.
But I don't really feel that bad. I guess we obtain a sense of apathy after being so accustomed to the velocity we are travelling at.
PLC was fun and lighthearted. Thanks to my dear patrol leader, Valerie and I who were so eagerly awaiting the AIC position, got the OIC one. Holy shit.. I know someone will criticise my incapability of PROJECTING MY VOICE. Hmph whatever I can be really loud if I want to, but not when you force me to.
Excuse me for being a moody little piece of shit.
4:24 AM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Ergh Totally not looking forward to the formal night during Lifeskills Night. Many people were surprised that I would even be turning up in a dress.Honestly,I'm surprised too. But I think that dresses are better than blouses+skirts. Anyway, mine is the least revealing out of my friends, from what I have heard and seen:) I don't see the point actually, it's just an event for show. Even if there were other people there. so what? What's the point of dressing yourself up and believing that u have given others a "good impression" of yourself? What does having social etiquette have to do with makeup and dreses? If you're not feminine, does it mean that you do not possess social etiquette. I hope not and if people continue expecting such things of me, I'd rather not be a part of this society.
Youtube is slow!!!!!!!!!!!!
8:27 PM
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Just came back from Guides Thinking Day Rally and i had THE MOST FUN in ages! Sat with my funny batchmates (well I am one of the funniest.. but ah well, shall deflate my ego for once) - Vic, Val and Mingpok and Jolynn.. the rest were far away but we stilllaughed and laughed nonstop. Why? Because there was this most amazingly amusing brownie in front of us (10 yrs old)called audris and she is damn perverted. She must have had a traumatised childhood because she spouted really sick stuff the whole time and she even poked a part of my anatomy that is too gross to name=/ Ew. but she was really funny when she kept complaining about our smelly bags. Took a pic of her and got her handphone number.. wahh kids these days get hp so early!
So it wasn't as boring as i expected. Except that I missed Rachie and Shaowin!!! They sat so far away.They are both so adorable!=D Rachel and rachwin, Shaowin and Edwin!
Okay back to studying for quizzes, sia rushing and ... working my ass off.
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Rargh. no matter what you say, i know that trust is gone. And without that, there is no basis for a genuine friendship. And i can't put the blame on anyone which is what I've become fond of. So with that, I say goodbye to what was a fun, true friendship.
2:17 AM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
I'm Back, and YOU thought this was dead =] I felt much happier today than I have for quite a while. Anyway, i strongly believe that the only reason i did freakily well for Math was because my bio was not good and my LA srq practice sucked majorly. So it all evens out and i shall not gloat anymore.
Okay so tomorrow's CNY celebsrations. I remember when I painted the chinese banner ai wei er shi tou (Avril rocks in chinese) last year =] Maybe i shall do a YUI rocks one. In case you don't know who yui is, go find out! :D She's almost as good as Avril, but they're different, so i shan't compare. Speaking of which, Avril's album is coming out on April 17! THE BEST DAMN THING is the name and it will definitely be the best damn thing of '07 and all time! I'm setting a hongbao aim.. so i will be able to get my essentials.
I want to watch Letters from Iwo Jima! But like most nice movies, it is rated NC16. Anyway, i'm going to watch Ghost Rider with Rachel L and maybe the rest tomorrow. It's been ages since I went to watch a movie.
And I thought tests were the end of our doom. SIAS SIAS SIAS.
Thanks to Melissag for the tag! even though we're not close, i think you can understand where i'm coming from. Valerie you suck! =P avril is not a barbie doll, she's much smarter and she is not plastic! Nila, yep, girlfriend rocks :) Yanne you're welcome! Thanks for the lollipop! Glad you know your decimal points.
5:23 AM
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
The school computer lab is such a wondeful place :D Tidied up the poem already.
In the library now. I am trying to work on the Kranji thing, but my poem is still in pieces. I was thinking of writing a letter, but I realise I don't know what to say. The poem is coming along rather weirdly. It's difficult to sit down and force myself to come up with a poem=/
School is sad=( My schoolwork sucks. I went completely out of point and failed my Chinese compo. I suspect that a lot of marks have been deducted from Chinese Test. And... we have Bio Test tomorrow. But it's not the quantity... more of the quality they expect from us. Or at least I feel so. Even if I push myself to the limit, I doubt I will be able to achieve what they expect. I'll be looking forward to the meeting with Jiaqi and Valerieeee on Thu.
I would say try not to let your academic life ruin your personal life. But I'm finding it very hard to do that.
8:27 PM
